Fact: Boy Friends are way better than Boyfriends

     Boy-Searching, Boy-Shopping, Boy-Hunting.  It doesn't matter what you call it, we all did it.  Whether it was hitting up the mall or scoping out dances, one of the main activities for you and your group of girl friends was to try and make more guy friends.  Now that we're a bit older we can ditch the cheesy name and simply say we're going to meet new people.  You start at an early age to think that the only way you make friends with the opposite gender is to go out of your way with a group of people to make yourselves known.  Well I'll tell you one thing: it was a lot easier back then.
     Now don't get me wrong, I don't think I'll miss those days of "boy-hunting", it was just a lot easier to meet new people when the aforementioned objective was on the forefront of  everyone's minds.  There are so many ways to meet people when you're younger because you don't know anyone to begin with, every face you see is a potential new friend.  Now, we always used to say all we wanted was to be friends with those guys that we'd meet, but we all know that's a lie.  Back then you met a guy so you could like him.  Unfortunately, we've exhausted all our boy-meeting efforts on those futile and very shallow reasons so that when you get a bit older and decide you do want new guy friends, there are no more to meet!  What seemed like the easiest thing in the world has now become rather difficult and tedious.  The bigger your social circle gets (and it expands exponentially during that first year of venturing out into society and befriending everyone that looks your age) the harder it becomes to keep expanding.  It's gotten to the point where everyone knows everyone and there is no way to meet a person without already having some sort of link to them!
     It may just be the catholic school system, it may just be microscopic Montgomery County, it might just be the amount of people in my age group in general, whatever it is...I hate it.

The Lying Game

     I'm playing my own lying game.  The scary part is I don't want to play; I'm stuck inside my own lying game.

     It was easier when I only had one best friend, but recently so many great people have strolled into my life that the list has gotten four times as big.  Most of the time the number doesn't affect me, but lately I'm caught in the middle of something I couldn't care less about.
     The closer you get to someone the more you trust them, and in turn, the more they trust you.  The more they trust you, the more they tell you.  People trust me; they trust me for a reason.  If someone asks me not to tell anyone, I don't.  It's simple and easy, or at least it was.  The closer you get with someone the more you want to tell them until it gets to the point where you want to tell them everything.  You can see where having more than one best friend gets conflicting.
     Lying about knowing, lying about how much, lying about what exactly it is.  You can have all the details from both sides and still not be able to say a word.  When I said I was playing my own lying game before, I lied.  It's not my game, I am just one of the pawns.  If I choose to quit it means I restrict people being able to talk to me; if I choose to quit I lose.  If I keep playing my friends  are gonna tear me apart slowly and unknowingly; if I choose to keep playing, I lose.  My two friends, they are the players moving my piece around the board.  I can't side with either because that means I don't agree with one.  I can't keep defending one to the other.  I'm stuck inside a lose-lose situation.
 
     Let's go back to when Candy Land was the only game people liked playing.